Becoming a Dad

From a young age, I always knew I wanted to be a young dad. I wanted to have the energy to play sports and games with my children and have more spirit and energy than them. Much of the it probably has to do how my father was pretty young when he had my siblings and me.

As I walked around and observed families during my trip to malls yesterday, I couldn't help but notice how the parents look like they were born to be parents. Maybe the early years of their children put so much stress on their lives that it affects their appearance, but they definitely looked the part.

When I look in the mirror, I certainly don't see a parent to be. Maybe it's similar to how high school seemed to be; when you're a freshmen, you don't look like a bit as mature as the seniors and that continues even when you graduate. Seniors are suppose to look mature but I didn't (I do have the innocence of an Asian boy though).

I'm thoroughly convinced that I will be one of those guys that will never stop having a childish spirit. I like to think that I'm responsible and mature enough to have children, even after hearing countless (horror) stories about raising kids. I would like to think I can be a mentor to children while having the ease of being approachable because of my enthusiasm and youthfulness. I hope I don't lose that when I become a parent. But I can't get ahead of myself, I have a few little details to take care of first before becoming a father.

I should definitely ask my parents when/why/how they decided to have children.

Note: This is NOT a hint that I'm trying to become a father at this point of my life.