I Don't know Why

Note: This is something I wrote in October 2013. I'm not sure why I never posted it. I'm guessing it's because it jumps topics a couple times. But that never stopped me from posting before...

Why is it that if I respond to texts immediately, I come off desperate? Why is it not positively looked upon when someone is readily available to help out a friend when they need it? Ironically if you are constantly accessible, people seem to expect you to be there for them at all times without question; else, you are somehow letting them down.

It seems that it is social standard to come off as too busy and not give others the time of day. For some odd reason, people don't like hanging out with people who are willing to give time. I guess they come off as "needy". I hate that the concept that you should be continuously busy. And if you say you didn't do much, the response is usually "It's always good to have those times" like it's like a guilty pleasure (sort of demeaning). This reminds me of "How was your weekend?" I personally view life to be filled with relaxation that is bothered by tasks, rather than being busied by life and need to create time to relax.

If you mention something in conversation or post about something on social media for the public to see, I'll probably remember and may ask about it in the future. I don't know how this comes off as creepy, but at times this seems to be the case (or I'm judging people's reactions overly sensitively). I don't know whether I have a tremendous memory/extraordinary listening skills, or that people tend to pretend to remember/know less (probably a combination of both).